what had gone wrong??
the night before i had only slept 4 hours doing the panels and trying to come out with a design.
it proved to be a wrong approach. the tutor questioned about my existence, the programme and teh site. she doesnt seem to like it and i feel fear. so much that i could not take it and i could really give up easily.
sep dreams are gone.
time to wake up and say good bye to the feel good dreams that had accompanied me for the last few years. time to wake up and face the real situation. the world forever changing, technology too. architecture students double in years and continue to rise in number. as small as i am, what can i do to break through.
i wanted to compete against the good students. i really hate the fact that i am labeled. say i am weak, say i m not meaningful. i dont believe it. but heck now comes to tell yourself that you really need to adjust your mindset to look into the possibilities.
i do not know what had gone wrong. not even after so many years and semesters and yet i am still dwelling in the old good days. the past of which i am really proud of. time to say bye bye and look at the future.
tell yourself that everything will be okay. and pray the future with blessings.
thats all i can do now.
have faith in myself.
have faith.
just have faith.
22 January 2007
1 comment:
hey gal!! i understand sometimes it is really hard for us to accept some cruel reality...
i m facing it now as well.. i started to doubt my own ability!! whether i can strive thru this or not!! then i tell myself if i give my best n at the end i can't do it.. well at least i tried.. but yea i will try my very best not to disspoint myself.. so u too!! no matter how hard this moment goin to be ... u have to strive thru it!! yea.... when it is over.. n when u look back u will find that it is not as difficult as u think! besides it will b a great experience!!! so
let's fighting together cool?!
dun give up !! we won't!!
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