2006 Reflections & 2007 Plans

2006

summary
january - nothing much
february - design in DT studio. very much of stuck
march - the model? but it didnt coem through. wasted effort on the wrong things.
april - suffered during the submission period.
may - tell myself that i am dead but i am not yet.
june - rag and a lot design ideas came through. hate and love shuyi.
july - birthday month. got the haircut.
august - thinks that chances are high for me and him. wahahhaha. what a joke. and i am so direct and persistent.
september - what happens then? cant remember.
october - a lot of design issues but then.. well.. again..
november - you did not try as hard during submission. not even for exams. you knew it!
december - drifted during the holidays.

good things?bad things?
1 physical changes
the day i got the hair cut never had i known it changed the way i think and also the following semester. that brought an impact in life that i had started believing in myself. that i could be one of those in the studios. although i had not made it through, but surely i will be there. just one more chance.

2 inner strength / perseverance / stamina
of course i know that i had not done enough. not discipline and well behaved, i screwed up when i cannot persevere. that determination did not come through. you had gone so far, yet tripped at the last minute for that small little tickle. DISCIPLINE!

3 ideas and creativity
well i had not learnt enough to back up the library. you know thy self well. hence it had made so much mistakes in technical drawings. in the design concepts-form making-details. in the design process. in the deliverables. oh well but then i had tried to learn a bit of html and blog designs. erm photoshop skill is really really bad. BACK UP next year!

4 towards people
love that i thought it had flourished it didnt. but it has yearned a better prospect in human relationship. so you better behave well enough in treating people, even just smile and greet them. friends, colleagues, hall mates, peers, studio mates, tutors, elders or even just the santeen uncle.

5 towards life
carpe diem! cherish life for every minute, isnt that the best thing? you have to believe in your dream in order to realize it!

mistakes
1 i had screwed up design. i cannot concentrate, keep flunking out during the process. the reason is that i am not confident enough in pulling that through and just eep my brain stick to the ideas and deliver them

2 i yelled at suching for no reasons. hall mates relationship suffered and i had so strongly kept myself away from the conflicts. i drifted away from my dearest chonghwa gang also. and lost in touch with ayvil mates and raleighians.

3 i spent too much time blogging for the sake of just taking glimpses of it. narcissist, huh?and the content is just too much of wind flower snow moon..hahhaha.. blog with meaning, dear! you have to have the brains!

4 lost in translations. language that i lost control. i cant even deliver the simplest sentence in the simplest grammar. back up the readings and build the library! you gotta have the grammars and vocabs for the library!

5 spent too much! oh on clothes, food and accessories! you should make a budget and plan for the rest of your life! and no more nice clothes okay! you dont even wear them.. and remember the scrub and facial cream.. forget 'em!

6 plans and movements. oh gosh make plans work! dont just sit there dreaming! wake up!

7 hall stuff and CCAs. i had one semester not doing anything. not even dare to try. you silly idiot and that wasted that semester!

8 self hygiene. arrghhhh........

9 running enough to slim down? hahhahah.....

2007

BIG DREAMS and NEW PLANS FOR 2007

1 perseverance and discipline - in all the plans you make, you gotta make them work

2 more confidence - in design!

3 make plans for one week/months ahead and budgets

4 greet and smile at people

5 reflections and sweep the floor every night

6 jog at least once a week

7 build up library - language/ murakami / literature / design and details

8 write a short story in 2 years and send it for the contest

9 carpe diem! seize the day!