some thoughts... for someone a million miles away

i know i m going to miss him
with hundred times of murmuring his name
i dropped back to myself asking if i should have done anything
else
i yearned for something that was so fragile and light
so thin the air you felt the luster of kiss
blew through the wailing wind
the air of silence
the air of solitude

your mind wanders as if there is another door behind
hissing and shouting your name
so that you will walk in to it
such a fool it snarls
yet that trap you fall into
is no other but created by you yourself

i cry for the name a thousand times
tears that stream never dry
it's so warm
reminds you of the heartfelt pain
which is prolonged
time to time

i see your name again
this time on the billboard so big and bright
if there is really law of attraction
how does that bring the secret of mine
to cross the roads and pass the air
and send it into your heart a million miles away

i utter the name of yours
a noun so strong
its has succeeded in rooting in my mind
telling me times of desperate loneliness
and times of the shallow hope
how it jumped up an down
and wiped me through

scorned at me
the truth of hope
i just wanted that moment to last
to see that in your eyes and
tell myself its real
but never
it happens
like a dream
oh
like a dream