the moment i reach my doorstep i guess something was wrong anyway. the washing detergent was dumped on the shoe rack.maybe it was me who had done it but anyway i could hardly remember that. and the apple was on the table, it was supposed to be in the frigde. the worst thging was - i tried to log on the computer but it failed. and foolishly i did something to it and it crashed.
now come to decisions, i really wonder if i had made mine correctly. all through these years have i done anything right so far.. like just deciding whether i should fit that bloody plug in or not and heck, that small decision screwed my life up! and for other major decisions in life.. like whether i am to study here or taiwan or china, even i had finally settled down, it seems to me that all decisions that i have done so far, are just driving my life up to a wall.
its just like driving on the high way without a map, i guess...
i need a map, or at least let me see a station. so long i have been driving across the desert, i feel dry and insecure. but these feelings are just making things worse. it aint contributing to my sense of confidence. feeling lost and feeling inconfident..
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