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There was a study which describe why human are more superior than their other homo counterparts. One of the main arguments was that we, homo sapiens, learn from mistakes and therefore well-adapted to the environment. ahha! if i follow this logic, i will never exist! lets see why:
human learn from mistakes.
i dont learn from mistake.
therefore i am not a human.

non-human, maybe a pig, a dog, or even a banana, doesnt learn from mistake.
i dont learn from mistake.
therefore i might be a pig, a dog, or even a banana.

for some crude reasons, i just cant seem to learn from mistakes. i could never say that i am born with such characteristic, for that i am putting the blame on my parents, or even great grand parents for passing such genetic traits to me. but well if they instead learn from mistakes and experience, i will neither be the F1 nor the F2 generation of the Tua/Toh and Ow family. yet how could i say that this is my nature, for if this is really me, i shall be in total madness instead!

imaging i myself looking at me, i cant help but feel like slicing off my brain and see what is really inside the blood and flesh. easy, just go for any IQ EQ or even MQ test and see what kind of ability or personality that i possess, (eh, forgot that you are not human, ah sorry, cannot check already. this is solely reserve for the highly rank homo sapiens!)

really, this is enough! i am really tired of blamingmyself after one and another stymie (yes, there is a word like this. it means 'a thwarting and distressing situation'.) for every exam it seem that i suffer. hey remember PMR? you didnt finish the BM essay because you are too busy copying the answers to another annswer book!! and dude, you did that same mistake again! this is really when i am cursng and swearing like mad that i would NEVER do it again.

i really do not know how far i could go if i ever re-make mistakes that hurdle me. evaluations wont help, forget it! focus so that you wont trap yourself again! goodness me, you are writing this for how many times!

one chinese proverb for this : the person who doesnt respect himself will be disrespected by other people. 人必自侮而后人侮之