heartbreak today...

i was tired, and sien, stoned for hours, and for no reasons, the adreanaline went down.. a lot of stuff haven been done, so i tried to get aba to help me..then started kena marah..(or shud i put 'he is juz bu shuang'..??)..i dono y, suddenly felt helpless..he's the one i tout of wanna rely on, as a aba figure in our family, a kind enuf guy 2 help us when vr having problems, n very very nice...
yet he seems so sad, i duno y, or if i misinteprete his looks...or shud i thk in dat way?(cos i dun realy see him dat often..)
ya, sdes r bz..bz till v 4got day n nite, but sooooooo..does it mean v hav 2 cut off teh interaction 2 d outsid eworldddddd? i dunnno..
soli, aba..soli...